So I've always been a commitment-phobe, and there's no legitimate reason for the fear. I come from a long line of happy and successful marriages. However, I have never been in a serious relationship, and because of that I guess I rely on my friends' experiences as well as what I've seen in movies. And for whatever reason this fear of commitment has developed.
So how do I get over this fear? Because it is definitely hindering my love life from blossoming. I mean I have crushes sure... but I have like 6 crushes at a time. And each crush helps me get over the previous one, andddd allows me to pull "classic Sinead" and when one of the crushes actually asks me out, I get nervous and freak out and convince myself that I like one of the other 5 more, so it's not "fair" to this one for me to go out with him. What? What sick, self loathing mind would do that?
I also have a habit of having crushes on guys in really serious relationships. Is that because they are such good catches and I recognize that, or is it because they are unavailable, so I won't have to follow through with anything??
Am I sabotaging myself or is it a coincidence that I like so many guys at once and most of them are unavailable?
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